I'm Really NOT Feelin' it

Today has been the first day in a few weeks where I am just unmotivated to write.  Last night I didn't exactly get the response I was hoping to see, especially with how much effort I've been putting in, but it is what it is I suppose.


A lot of the time I do get really discouraged about a lot of stuff.  Stuff gets to me, eats away at me, but I just never really whine about it.  I keep it to myself and shut up about it.  Work harder, prove your worth, etc.  Over the last couple years though its been a cycle of it paying off and it blowing up in my face.  From jobs to hobbies.  I guess that's life though.


Added on with how useless I've been feeling in the care of my child.  He sleeps all the time and only mostly wakes up to eat.  I help out around the house but it's not giving me a sense of purpose or fulfillment.  It's just tough when there really isn't anything I can help with.  Or maybe it is helpful and I'm just thinking it isn't.  I could do more, or least I feel like I could.


Weekend is coming up!  My grandmother-in-law is coming to town from Vegas.  I'm ultra excited!  I have really cool in-laws.  They're always genuinely interested in our lives and whats happening, and they make a great effort to be around.  I appreciate it a lot.  Plus Grandma-Ann is my favorite grandma of all time.  Aside from my grandmother who raised me of course. 


So I'm looking forward to her being here, getting lunch, and her being around for a few days.  Plus she gets to meet her great grandson!  Oh it's a big deal in the family because we produced the first grandson for our parents, and the first great-grandson on my immediate families side and her side.  Wooo go us!  Plus he's so cute!  I streamed him live yesterday and he told all about his day!


Well I'm gonna take off, see you guys in the next blog!  See ya!

Struggle Is Weird

Parenting.


It's something I certainly am trying to get used to.  My wife has been being amazing with everything that's been happening.  She spends all day taking care of the lad and I just am struggling to find a good balance between work, family, and hobby.




Typically I come home from work and just spend time with them as we had always done.  Hang out, watch TV, make food, etc.  But when it comes to sleeping at night I have to basically juggle the idea of sleeping, or staying up/getting up with him regularly so she doesn't have to do it alone.  She does so much with him.  So I need to try harder to be more involved in his care.




Today I wrote another news article detailing the announcement of the Collector's Edition for World of Final Fantasy, so that's pretty cool.  I actually was able to make  Press Account for SquareEnix as well!  It makes me happy when I can get some sort of progression with the press stuff.  I might have something even cooler to announce in a few weeks.




We'll see though!